I am what I think I am. No more, no less. Yikes!
Wakeup read.. my eyes are burning and yet I don't want to stop. What time am I going to read the rest? How about now.. let's get it out of the way is what I'm really thinking.. is that bad? I keep hearing it will pay off well here's what I can say so far; IF I do not do one of my readings I feel massive guilt! Why!? Well because if I don't do it what does that say about me? SCARY THOUGHT! so.. I do it and I do it and I do it... Am I doing this right?
Yahoo! A speed reading course. That was a well invested 3 hours. SO now I read with my book tilted down to 30 degrees, I use a pencil as a pointer, I sway my head from left to right as though I'm playing Atari tennis and lastly I read in swooping links missing 80% of the line BUT I am supposed to keep it up and not worry about retention of what I am reading...great. Thankfully I've read Scroll 1 in GS 60+ times by now and know what it says :) The challenge now is the workbook, I am not retaining much - hope there isn't a test? There are test quiz questions at the back of each lesson though so that is curious? Am I doing this right?
I guess I am in a serious trust building stage here because I am second guessing things. Or am I second guessing myself? This is the lesson for week 4 for me, what are my trust issues really? Are they with me or just about everything else? Am I doing this right?
Eek! My philosophy, (when not under pressure aka the one I am desperately wanting to adopt as my second nature aka my desired natural response aka reaction versus response) is that there is no right or wrong, only effective and ineffective and so after rereading this before posting I want to delete it all and write from my head instead of my heart to look less crazy to the one or two that may read this. I guess I have a fear of judgement after all... let me rephrase that seems I may have a fear of not being liked because it's ok if you judge me positively.
Oh boy there's a can of worms
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