MasterKey MasterMind Alliance Week #10 What is balance?

Seriously IS balance even possible?

My business is thriving, my personal growth is flowering, my relationship with my prince charming is at a 10, I feel and look better than I can ever remember and I am stressed out because I haven't read this or completed that or done more than 1 sit a week? How can I play this game of AND to the level I expect to and not crash? I mean really, the biggest challenge I am having now is managing my stress and guilt of not completing all of my assignments. Not to mention, my plate is about to be even more full as I chair my next Toastmasters event, have Christmas social events that I must make appearances at, facilitate a workshop for my upcoming Ladies In Power event next Monday eve, fly to Portland for 2 nights to support my growing team there (missing the shareholders dinner for one of our investments) AND I have not yet tapped into my time sensitive personal coaching that I paid several thousands of dollars for AND I will be coaching a team of leaders for 90 days with daily responsibilities and major time and energy commitments each weekend Starting in Jan running through into. Add 3 doctors appointments each week with travel and wait times totaling about 8.75 hours, 14 dog walks at 15 mins each on average is 3.5 hours, grocery shopping, preparing meals every day, laundry and keeping our house clean enough to see the floor (at least!) Every moment of every day is maxed out and then some.

Looking back, it seems all the things I have been manifesting are coming to life and this is exciting! The question I have though is how do others do this or is it that others simply have less going on? Looking ahead there is no time for date nights, sleeping in, creativity or just enjoying a state of nothingness and that.... is not exciting. I am at a cross roads. I must take that nothing ness time at the risk of continuing to exhaustion

MasterKey MasterMind Alliance Week #9 - LOA at work big time in my life

LOA at work big time in my life~

I have attracted a few new people into my life recently and they have helped me up my game simply by wanting to partner with me. I had a woman reach out to me on facebook. She shares that she has been following me for 3 years and was having big challenges in her health, she asked me to help her. She purchased our biggest package, introduced me to 5 others and because of her courage and my willingness to prepare, all 5 went through the entire 3 step process and chose to partner with us.  This has helped her reach two milestones in the company and her short video testimonial has had more than 6000 hits! Personally, this is most amazing because 1. we may have saved her life and 2. through this work I have been constant in my intention, my discipline and commitment. I manifest continued courage every day and feel really good about my progress which in turn helps others progress and that, is the secret to my happiness.

The biggest 'aha' is that I really must keep ahold of my thoughts. As the days passed, my confidence wavered though with the consistent reading and awareness of my thinking I am able to keep the negative at bay and shout my positive from the rooftops which reinforces the good :)

I come from a place of gratitude and have asked for what I want this past week, setting me up for successes all over and I am on top of my game! I had dinner with the #1 earner in the world in my company and we discovered we are from the same city, have a mutual friend of 30+ years and that we have taken some of the same personal development classes over the years. I was validated for all my hard work when he said he would personally mentor me. I had been asking the universe for leadership in my company that will continue to inspire my own and voila- a terrific bottle of wine some amazing food and my dreams are coming to fruition.

I read my goals each day, I focus on my strengths and build on them, I am gentle and forgiving of  myself when I am not performing as I know I'm capable of. I am learning to love myself bigger and honestly, it has been a great combination of hard work on myself, knowing what to do and not do and being partnered with the greatest support system I could ever ask for, my darling husband Sean.

                                                                      I love my life!

Master Key Master Mind ALliance Week #8

Things are looking up!

I spent the entire day Sunday playing catch up and it feels amazing!
I feel I'm getting way more out of my reading now and actually sitting! Interesting self observation is that IF I get behind I feel like giving up - though I do not give up, I do take a while to get back on creating a bigger gap and more anxiety. Hmmm where did I learn that?

Starting to realize everything is within. I make choices.. actually my habits do, and even my responses and reactions are habits and that terrifies me. I am going this way and that in my head.
Loving this week's (and last week's sit) ... always loved looking at close up and especially things in reverse. As we work on making a baby it is super cool to understand HOW it happens...  not that part ;) Being healthy, having all the parts, timing and so much more. Myself and choices I've made throughout my life that brought me to here... why I want to be a parent and so much more!
Next thought.....

To know what I want, why I want it, what I am doing and why I am doing it is the ultimate question I am asking myself right now.

I have control over my situations, my feelings, my emotions right? Um....NO I really don't, not yet ;)
I have been known to sabotage my personal success, even though I am all about affirmations, worthiness, reading, meditating etc... it is such a tough habit to break and yet when I admit that it seems I am making that 'groove' in my head deeper which is opposite of what I want.

I currently have a foundation, I am president of my Toastmasters, run a growing team in my networking company, help my husband with our construction company, am a terrific dog owner walking 2x a day rain or shine (sharing with hubby) I am involved heavily in personal development and it seems, many friends, business partners, customers, followers want to hear my story. "You could write a book" I hear so often and yet, "If only you knew" runs through my head. What I mean is... YES I have an amazing story, and I ask myself if I choose to tell it, why?  'What is my intention?'
That I needed to suffer to succeed? That things must be bad to be good. That the world can be harsh? That I struggled? Well, this is only my experience - why would I want others to think difficulties need to happen? AND if I do tell my story (in my perspective) what is the cost? I mean really,  many people that I love with all my heart, in fact many are the most important people in my life. I have since forgiven them and we are love now but IF I leverage that story to build myself up or others the ones I love will be hurt. Why would I do that?  IF I am honest about my story as I remember it - a lot of people will be saddened, shocked, even offer pity or sympathy and that is NOT what I want. I struggle with the balance of telling a story of victim (childhood) and making it victor- I don't want people to think they can't have what I have because they didn't live as I lived and yet I want them to know they can have anything... regardless.

I guess ultimately, this post is about love. I have love, I give love, I need love, I believe in love. I am love. Love is all there is. Love always wins. Love is everything.

Master Keys Master Mind Alliance Week #7

"I form good habits and become their slave." Perhaps IF i say this 100x a day I will actually start to?

I read this 3x a day, I reflect, I manifest, I prepare for my day ahead before bed I set small goals so I can build trust and confidence with myself and the last 2 weeks.... I set up goals and did not hit them. I stay up til 130am to get my reading done, I honour the phone rule for an hour b4 bed and all the other things we do but not my little wee goals... not my brilliant opportunity to sit and explore my genius mind?  Self sabotage. Really, I mean my goal last week was to wash my beautiful car.. and I didn't make the time to do that. :(  The week before I was to plant garlic and Kale in my winter garden, and I didn't do that. WHy is it that when I make a commitment to anyone else, anyone else, I fulfill it and allow myself to be last and often do not keep my word with myself? This is a big deal. " I will cause others to believe in me because I will believe in them and in myself" What's up with the myself part? Honestly, this is my homework for this week- I want to create a new habit of keeping the commitments I make to myself!
....  4 days later

I am feeling over whelmed. I suck at not having an opinion, missed the last webinar and will be in Vegas for the next one. I am behind in my role as President in toastmasters, I am behind in follow ups for my personal calls, I am behind in my coach calls, I am behind with my Ladies in Power paperwork and marketing, I am behind in my house work, I did not do my small goal last week, I have not set my new goal yet for this week, I have done more than an hour every day of reading and still have fallen terribly behind- not in the loop for what is due this week and really feel like crap. Can't remember ever feeling so stressed, behind or lost. Perfectionist? Yup AND my character and reputation are everything and being tried this week!! Ahhhhh!!

The speed reading has only caused me to have to reread everything because I have digested nothing in 2 weeks trying to do it- and although she said it's normal I am missing the content and that is probably not normal. Perhaps I could practice on a romance novel or something that would not matter if I got it or not :0

Frustrated and not quitting.

Meeka